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The Bible shows us a glimpse of the lives of different women who have been broken and felt their life was a barren land with thistles, parched/dry land, undesirable and discarded. Some of these women were nameless such as the woman with the issue of blood (Luke 8:43-48 NLT). We all have an issue, may it be disease, loss of home or business, loss of a child or loved one, depression, anxiety, addictions, loneliness, whatever it is, and it has been haunting us for a long time.
Hannah in the Bible (1 Samuel 1 NLT), was a barren woman, longing for a child of her own, being laughed at and ridiculed by other women. Hannah did not hide the fact that she was very needy and desperate for God to hear her cry. She didn't care what she looked like or who was watching her, as she sat at the temple, begging the Lord to hear her heart. She rocked herself back and forth as she cried and mumbled to God that to others, it seemed like drunken woman.
Abigail (1 Samuel 25 NLT) was a woman who stopped at nothing to save and protect her family. She was a peacemaker. Then there is Esther (Esther 1-8 NLT) who saves her people through a series of events. Ruth and Naomi (Ruth NLT), two women bonded together by pain, both suffering in silence, both have gone through deep losses. They share their pain, and make a long journey together to get to their destiny. A beautiful story of how pain can bring two people from different cultures and beliefs together.
It is amazing how we can help a person by not saying a word. Our presence sometimes is enough to hold someone who may be going through barrenness. The twisted woman in the Bible (Luke 13:11-17 NKJV), invisible to many, suffering in silence for 18 years, caught the eye of Jesus who saw the hold the enemy had on her. He looked past her outward appearance and saw her tears, her pain, her sorrow, her humiliation, her barrenness and tells her, "Woman, thou are loosed of your infirmity". This same Jesus is speaking to us today. He says it once we hear it at least twice (Psalm 62:11 NLT).
Perhaps you also are going through some similar challenges and cannot find God in your situation. Maybe you too have been waiting to hear from God for a long time, like the woman with the issue of blood who waited 12 years, Joseph was in jail for 12 years because of hatred by his own siblings, and the twisted lady who suffered pain of Arthritis for 18 years get their breakthrough. God has an answer for you. do not give up. Allow yourself to hear Jesus’ voice saying to you,
"Woman, thou are loosed of your infirmity" (Luke 13).
I went through many years of wilderness in my life, of shame and fear.
I was a young Christian girl wondering why God would allow me to suffer if He loved me. I could not understand how a God of love would allow horrible things in someone's life.
I was so lost that I wanted to take my own life. I was messed up inside and outside. I was like that woman with the issue of blood, going here and there for help, but there was no help. I was that twisted woman who was invisible and forgotten. I was the broken Naomi who lost a child, lost her love and everything that mattered to her.
What do you do when you cannot find God ANYWHERE! I thought He lived in my trouble, but I looked for Him (Job 23:8-9 NLT), (Song of Solomon 3:1-3 NLT), and I could not find Him. "Why have you forgotten me, why God have you left me", I cried but I did not hear Him.
You see, I wasn't the only one praying this prayer (Psalm 77: 7-9 NLT), and in (Psalm 22 NLT), the Psalmist also cried to God the same prayer my heart was crying to God. Jesus himself sweated blood when asking his father, "God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" (Mark 15:34 NLT and Psalm 22:1 NLT).
We cannot understand the ways of God. He says in Isaiah 55:8 (NKJV), that “… My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways …” What He knows and sees, we don't. He sees the end from the beginning …Declaring the end from the beginning … (Isaiah 46:10 NKJV). With all the bad that happened in my life, I am grateful that those hard times changed my life. I am here to tell my story and to encourage many who are in similar situations as me, that there is a tomorrow that is far greater than what they are going through now.
I am still here declaring the goodness of God in my life.
I see myself as the alabaster jar, broken at the master’s feet and my testimony is the fragrance helping others.