You cannot say, here I am, send me unless you really mean it and are ready to go wherever and whenever God sends you. Because if you are thinking it will be in nice fancy hotels and in front of cameras with dainty little steps and pointed heel shoes, then you better stay right where you are in your comfort zone. When God calls you, you will be standing alone in an orchard with trees full of ripe fruits, in the middle of the harvest season with no equipment, ready to pick. Mary the mother of Jesus life changes when God announced to her that He had chosen her to be the carrier of His child. Her life turned upside down from a excited bride to be to a homeless woman on the run from a King who wanted to kill her baby.
It will cost you to follow Jesus, and there is no turning back. There is a price to pay, when you put your hand up to follow Jesus. It will cost you your friends, your habits, your comfort zone and everything your flesh runs after. It cost Jesus His life on the cross when He said to His father, "Here I am, send me."
There will be times you will have no money for food or to pay your bills. The devil will laugh on your face for leaving your comfort things behind to sleep on the mattress on the floor. Your families and close friends will tell you that you are crazy, that something has gone wrong with you and you will secretly wonder if they are right because you know you have changed.
You will no longer be able to enjoy the fellowship of friends in clubs and social places you once hung around in. Your associations with your loved ones and friends will change. The things you once enjoyed and the passions and hobbies you once spend time in will no longer satisfy your soul. You will start feeling a pull, a tug so strong in your spirit that nothing else will make you happy till you find where that pull is coming from. One by one all your friends will say good bye, as they fall off your radar because you are no long fun to be with. Because all you talk about is this 'Jesus'.
It is a lonely walk following Jesus, when you say, "Here I am, send me!"
But the reward is like none other because you will find yourself doing exactly what you have been called to do and you will no longer be looking for 'that something missing' in night clubs, in market places, in alcohol and gambling and in relationships. Because when you put your hand up and say, "Here I am Lord, send me," you will find that you have finally found home. That you have found 'that something' that satisfies your soul. You will find that you are no longer 'searching for that something missing' because it was your purpose that was missing, it was God missing that you were looking for in places and in things and in people.
When you put your hand up for God, you are saying, "Lord for all that you have done for me, I bring to you my sacrifice of thanksgiving, myself." Abraham brought to God the one thing that was the closest to his heart, his promised son Isaac. There is nothing you and I love more than ourselves. That is why we buy all those shoes and handbags and wigs and clothes to adorn ourselves. And when you bring yourself to God to allow Him to use you as He sees fit, it is a prayer, a sacrifice unto God of that which is most valuable to you, 'yourself!'
Are you ready for the ultimate sacrifice of all that you are and all that you ever wanna be, bringing it to the Master's feet and saying, "Here I am Lord, send me."
It will cost you to lay down everything and everyone you hold close to your heart and run after Him who made you, your maker and your creditor. We are not here to build our own kingdom, but His Kingdom here on earth. We are privileged that He found us first and now it is our job to bring others to Him. "Here I am Lord, send me!" I will go wherever you send me. I will eat whatever you give me. I will do all that you have assigned me to do and I will bring my praise to You the most High God. In all that I am and all that I ever wanna be, I bring to you my sacrifices of joy and thanksgiving for all that you have done for me. "Here I am Lord, send me!"
It is hard to find a perfect pair of shoes that is nice but offers comfort as well. Sometimes it is very confusing as you walk past so many styles and colors for every outfit. We survey each set, from high heels that we could barely walk in to the flats that you feel the pebble underneath. We even try a few forbidden ones, the towering heels we can just about take a few steps in. It fits perfectly and looks stunning but you cannot walk in them. Have you ever purchased shoes just because they look so beautiful even though you will never wear them? Maybe that red stiletto, pencil heels, red underneath, the ones you see celebrities wear and you cannot resist. You hear it whisper to you and you cannot walk away. You cannot walk in it but it look good so you buy it.
Life will allude you to things you sometimes buy into knowing that it is not good for you. We all fall into certain temptations. For some it maybe shoes, but for others it could be far more damaging such as drugs or gambling.
The Bible talks about Jonah who runs way from God calling and God sends a huge storm in the ocean where he was hiding in a boat. His rebelliousness catches up with him and he finds himself in the deep dark place in the whales belly (Jonah 1) from where he cries out to God. Our disobedience cost us. There is a price to pay for everything. Sometimes our behavior puts others at risk, maybe our children, our families and our loved ones. Jonah had put the other sailors at risk by his foolishness, the choice he made to disobey God. Like God could not find him in the ship. Even though the sailors threw him off board to save the shift and themselves, God remains merciful and sends a whale to swallow him. Jonah did not die even in the ocean.
When a storm hits our life because we have involved in things we did not expect to get involved in, like Jonah we cry out to God who hears us even from the deep dark place.
You may feel like there is no hope for you and that mess you are in is so big that no one could help you, but God can. If he can send a whale to save a rebellious man, God can save you too.
Ask God today to help you out of your situation and He will send you help.
Help is near, as near even in your mouth. Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find (Matthew 7:7).
i lIt was dawn my favorite part of the day. I looked through the window of my tiny bedroom this morning praying. I saw the white picket fence and the road. I looked at the neighbor's houses across the road. I was in this unit a year now and had only spoken to two neighbor's. I had given up everything, sold what little I had to follow the vision God gave me few years ago. I left everything with the promise growing in my belly of the vision He gave me. Here I was a year ago, His promise coming true in my life. His word is forever true and solid. What He promises, He delivers. It may not be exactly as you saw in your vision or imagined it, but it He does deliver in His perfect time in His way.
I thought of my previous house I had lived in for twelve glorious year. It was just over a year ago I sold it reluctantly. It was double story old beach house surrounded by lush tropical plants and shrubs. I saw myself in the various rooms of the house where I stood to pray. I could hear the waves. I could feel the warm breeze on my face as I sat near the door praying. My heart was happy. I was home with my husband and my family. We were very happy in this house. We found the Lord in a different level here. I pulled myself away to my current view. My view was different now.
I sat on the side of my bed trying to pray in tongues. I could hear my husband praying softly in the dining room as he does each morning.
It was still dark, summer cool morning was dawning.
I thought of the homeless people sleeping with nothing on them.
I thought of you. I wandered what could you see outside of your window?
Maybe you could see snow draped fashionably all over outside of your window. Maybe you have green mountains and fields with cows and goats happily grazing.
Maybe you can hear the dull flow of the nearby creek or maybe it's raining heavily this morning as you look through your bedroom window.
All our views are different this morning as I gaze through my window.
My view changed in a year. Little did I know then that God had another city for me. A different time zone, a different view. Life can change things in a blink.
We are waking up in a different time zones in a different weather. Some of us did not sleep all night. And unfortunately some did not make it to morning. Someone perhaps crawled without a home to return to, in front of a shop thinking about the childhood they had. A life that was snatched from them. They wandered how they ended up homeless on the streets. Their view was perhaps the hurried feet trotting by to get to their work.
Our views either it's looking outside our window or looking at life can change very quickly. Maybe you had it all going for you before, with a family, a job and a home and now you are standing alone looking through the window in a leased home.
I stood at the same window in the previous evening with hot tears dripping down my cheeks as I shared with God my heavy heart. But in the morning my tears had dried. Although my situation had not moved, but my view had shifted. I stood at the same window, with a different view.
Your view in life or outside your window will not stay the same.
Life changes. It will shift.
A little step here and a big step there, moves us to another window in another time.
We are only passers by. We are moving through. We are not staying.
A journey we are all taking. We cannot hold a view down. We cannot hold anything down. Don't be too rushed to pass through life. I remember being young I could not wait till I was a teenager so I could have a boyfriend like other girls.
Then when I became a teenager, I could not wait to leave home, leave my 'mean' parents who would not let me wear lipstick or things I wanted to wear.
I rushed through time and forgot to appreciate where I was at.
I could not wait to get married. I could not wait to have a baby.
I look back now and I realize sadly that I have raced through time. I barely enjoyed each season of my life. Each season I moaned and groaned. I mumbled and complained. I could not wait for the next season, for the next year and in doing so, I missed every opportunity to be happy, to cherish the many little blessings I was given.
Now I am older going through senior life changes and I look at my life on the hindsight. I see how I was in a big rush to get older.
I now long for those young days when I was being awakened by my mum for school. When I walked the gravel road alone talking to God to school. I could hear the neighbors dog barking, and someone calling my nick name they all so fondly used. Tears filled my eyes and my heart went all mushy. I can almost feel my mums breath as she gently pushed the blankets off me and I moaned protesting. I could hear her calling my name, telling me to get up or a stick was coming. I could hear myself mumbling and complaining why mum always called me, why not my sisters. I told her I was going to run away, to leave the house to work in the big city. Tears stated to roll down my cheeks as I remember my childhood days. How quickly they went. I wanted it to disappear so I could become a grown up and now I wanted them back.
I saw myself waking up early to ask my dad fifty cents before he went to work. I saw my siblings arguing about chores. I have not seen some of my siblings in years as they live overseas. I long for those young days, the moments when life was simple.
I miss my mother and my father who I thought they would be around forever.
I never stopped to appreciate them or tell them how much they meant to me. I just raced through life wanting to leave home, wanting to grow up and now I don't have them.
We want the next phase quickly, give me tomorrow Lord, today is too hard. We beg God for the next day hoping it might have something better while we are letting go of today at hand.
Instead of appreciating the moment, the season we are in, we long for tomorrow. But when tomorrow comes, we are still not happy. And then we are in our sixties and seventies and look at life and wander where did it all go.
Enjoy the season. That day will never come back.
That very day you want to get out of, will not return. You will look back and long for that day that you are now begging God to move you from. Your moment will never return. No one tells us these valuable lessons which only life teaches us but a little too late.
Let me encourage you today, to embrace the moment you are in, good or bad, it is a moment you are in and it is passing very quickly.
We can buy things in life, but we cannot buy time. We cannot buy the breath of God which has to return to him.
You only have the moment you are in now, the rest is a gift to us. Be appreciative of your moments, and live your life to the fullest. It goes very fast. When we are a child, it seems to go slow, but when we get older, it seems to race.
Your view will never be the same as the moment you have now. This moment is all you have. Cherish it. Love the people in it. And thank God for it. xx